ominous guts

Took a test on Friday....I don't think I did that good.
I know I sometimes say I didn't do that good but internally feel it wasn't that bad, but this time I know for certain I didn't do that good and internally I feel doomed.
I was hoping to redeem my last almost-pass-grade with a good grade this time, but it was total failure.
.......I feel nervous and super scared of seeing my professors eye to eye after this second failure.
super embarrassing and super worried of failing this class.

My brain just feels saturated with so much info that I don't know what to do anymore...I guess I just need to relax a bit..
sighhhhhhh*

apparently I talk to animals hahah

I believe I saw a leopard caterpillar. This is the second one this week, and this is the second one in which I can't help but move them out of the way. I placed this second one in the grass, but then I just looked at it and it was struggling to get through the grass. Then I moved it again onto the tree's leaves and it fell to the grass...I felt horrible! I was going to leave it there but it looked so distressed trying to walk through the stupid grass. So there I go again trying to place it on the tree branch this time, and it grabbed on. Oh and by this time, a neighbor walked by and a dog came to ask "wtf are you doing?" Lolol! no but seriously a dog did sit there and just looked.

By then I was just looking at the caterpillar hoping it wouldn't fall off again and then I'm thinking, "Maybe I'll bring him some lettuce..." Then my super-ego says, "Wtf, NO. Go study you idiot."

ahhh become a beautiful leapard moth my love~ *with sparkly eyes and flowery backgrounds like in manga scenes*

lolol what a day~

oh wow

I've developed a celebrity crush...lol just how old am I...I really don't get these much, honestly!

Now that I think about it..he is the second one and the two that I have are both from the same drama of Itazura na Kiss except from different versions. The first..well know second, is Joe Chang from the Taiwanese version and now the new first one is Furukawa Yuki from the Japanese version.
Gosh I just think these two are handsome, but I just really like Furukawa-san's prominent jaw line and big eyes lolol. He has that rare serious look that I just really can't stop looking at haha.
He's just really handsome~
Can't wait for the next episode (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡

kekeke

I'm a bit tired.
I think I'm a bit more stressed than tired I guess.
Yeah I think it's that: stresssssssssssss.

I think it's both physically and emotionally...
I think I'm letting the girl's talk of relationships get to me. Lately they talk about their love lives and how they are all together with someone. Either married, engaged, or in a long term relationship.
I have none of the above.
I never really gave it too much of a thought. I mean I have daydreamed of stuff like this, but who doesn't~ But my real life crushes never grew and were always one sided so a relationship never occurred. This is what reading too much manga does!! lol.

I've always been told I'm too serious. I was actually told that I'm getting too much education and that this will scare away any possible husband lolol. I guess my serious face and knowledge made me look like a superior human looking down on all men! LOLOL! Crazzzzzzy shit.
That was the most stupidest is-your-brain-in-your-ass type of love-life tip.
Nah, I guess I just wonder when I'll find that person who doesn't mind me being there as we enjoy each others presence... No, I'm not feeling lonely because I'm never really alone. I just wonder when I'll come across that one person I need no distance from....
meh~

I saw a black caterpillar with yellow/orange horns!!! woOoOooaaaAaAAaHhhH!

just random stuff

It's getting a bit tiring. I had a tremendous pressure in my head today where my eyes, nose, and forehead just wanted to shut down. I had a dream with a special someone...a mixed happy, sad dream. He was much more jittery than the first time I met him, and he kept lying to me about who the girl was...lol weird~ I think I'm the jealous type haha

I kinda wished it kept on raining but I'm terrified of the sound of thunder. I think I just feel strange lolol whatever that means. Like I need to write stuff out. I don't want to because it's just frivolous stuff that I already know about myself, but I feel a great urge to just get it out of my system.

goooooooooooooooooooooosssshh!

maybe later..I have a test coming up~